oh and i watched @suicideroom today too. mixed feels on that movie. i feel the way everyone perceives what its supposed to portray is a bit off… idk.
today has been one of the best days i’ve had in a while :)
like really really, I’ve felt so happy today. I kicked my eating disorder’s ass by not binging or restricting and even eating out WITH dessert! I went to senior awards and got recognition for being an honor graduate, national honor society member, and having an ACT score above 27. above that though, g$ chose me for the english award! and the marines gave me and brad an award! AND MR JOHNNY GAVE ME A SCHOLARSHIP! $1500 plus any extras I may need. i need to call him tomorrow. oh and guys i got so prettied up for the ceremony and it was so worth it because my dad showed up and he told me i looked beautiful :’) so many good feels and genuine smiles. it’s a great experience to have such an innocently great day. life’s sober pleasures, man~
would anyone wanna see city and colour with me in october? i’m thinking of buying my ticket soon. ?
I feel really lonely right now.
Can I like kill myself now or wait until later? I hate when I start thinking and feeling these things…
Hw Kim has given me that I’ve failed to do:
- Write a letter to my mom about certain things and burn it after
- Practice deep breathing once a day
- Relook up the consequences of diabulimia
didn’t binge yesterday, but still ate over 3000 calories. i’m a fucking disgrace.
Im so fucking fat. Idek what to do anymore. My brain constantly screams at me to restrict or binge. Why can I just be normal and not cry about this everytime it comes up?
I don’t know what to do with myself.
Today has been a horrible day as far as handling my eating disorder goes ):
…my parents gave Bowser away. I want to fucking binge.
ok no i need a nap now. no nap cuddle partner for me doe :’c
I WANT BIG BOOBS JFKFKLDJGKLDFJGJDKGF
ok but what path do i wanna take?! D:
there’s too many options like…
- My Fitness Coach Wii Program
- Biggest Loser Wii Program
- Just Dance 4 Wii Program
- Zumba Fitness 2 Wii Program
- Fitness’ Bikini Body Bootcamp
- Xfactor: ST
- Regular old gym
I know xfactor gave me results last summer… and i deff got results from the gym/mfc/bl combo before but i dont think that was healthy.
idk i just wanna lose weight and be a cutie pie D: